Fixing a broken heart.

Ask myself?
i kept pondering the whole day , feelin so so dead dwn depressed in sch.
do u noe wad i wanted only frm u ?
i jus wana noe hw u r feeling in ur heart, cos i care alot alot .
be it happy , sad , or ...
i jus wana noe, wana be by u to share ur troubles and happiness if u wan me to.
thats wad i shuld do as ur gf.

i tot i would be left crying at outram station, but i told myself nt to , i kept back my tears. noeing that he wont like me doing that.
while i was squashing , i was thinking whether to drop him a msg , like say "jia you" or sumthg to motivate him. in the end, i didnt, i told myself that i shuld give him time to cool himself dwn. and yesh i did.
after squashing, i gt to find out that hes nt feeling that well and that hes pretty tired. could be frm stress frm sch and work . hw i wish i knew that earlier. so that i will noe wad to do and accomodate by his feelings and moods. i felt such a failure today at outram station. my palms were pretty much freezing and i was anticipating , anticipating for wrds cuming out frm his mouth . anticipating for him to grab onto my palms and reconcile well again.
upon reaching dover, we were like miles apart. one back and one front. didnt dared to approach him then. didnt wana add oil to fire. i jus noe deeply in my heart that hes very tired thats all. and yes, jian nan, lets concentrate more on studies and jia you together.
theres sumthg that i wish for from u , pls pls do let me noe,if ur feeling dwn sum day , try ur best to share with me. if u realli cant, its okie. but do share with ur frens or family . dun keep everythg to urself.
cos i really care .
take care lots.
-jiayou, -jas